Migraines part 2

I have had an on and off migraine since Wednesday. Yesterday was the worse so far. I had to ask my dad to drive us to the doctor's for my littlest one who needed to be seen with an emergency. She goes back on the 10th for a recheck.

My dad stayed from that appointment until Jeff got home from work since I had a migraine and with my migraine medicine was sleeping it off (or at least trying to).

I've got a bit of a headache today but hopefully it won't be affected too much by the trick-or-treaters that we expect to get later on this afternoon and evening.

Right now Jeff and I are thinking that these migraines are hormonal in nature and I just came off the progesterone only pill and where I would have been in my cycle would lend itself to a hormonal migraine.

Back to nursing my headache...

Migraines

I know that I was taught not to hate but I'm sorry to say that I hate migraines. I had one last night. I tried sleeping it off with a nap which didn't work. I tried my more natural things of taking Butterber which didn't work. I tried aromatherapy which didn't work. I finally gave up at 10:30 and took my migraine med. An hour later I was sound asleep. Best night sleep that I have gotten in a long time...too bad it took a migraine for that to happen.

I'm off my progesterone only pill and wondering if I had a hormonal migraine last night with my one remaining ovary.

Lordy only knows with me...it could be anything!! I'm just praying for no migraines today.

The Weather and My Mood

Outside my home is cold, windy, raining, and dreary. Inside the home, while it's filled with laughter from my children, my mood is similar to the weather outside. I'm tired due to lack of quality sleep. I'm experiencing some dull abdominal throbbing at times but I think I know what that is do to. I'm feeling blue...and trying to shake the feeling. Somehow I think that if I can get the sleep and the pain under control, the blue feeling will go away.

Jeff helped me last night by cutting up some veggies for me to make soup this afternoon as a part of tonight's dinner. I didn't have the energy to do it yesterday afternoon myself.

I'm hoping to get over to the craft store soon so that I can pick out some grossgrain ribbon and some paint for a project that I'm trying to work on for my girls. It's a project that I wanted to do before my surgery. Hopefully I can go there tomorrow evening since today is just bad...

Not Coping Well Today...

Today is a bad day for me. I seem to be done with the ashy looking discharge but I have a reddish-pink discharge now. This isn't helping my emotions at all. I just want to scream, punch a door, and cry like I did when I was trying to conceive. I want to put up the walls and hide away right now.

Still Sore...Advil not Working

I was beyond miserable last night with pain. My pain med really didn't kick in after 2 hours even with 4 advil on top of it. I ended up falling asleep due to sheer exhaustion around 2 am. I woke up in the fetal position this morning before 7:30 when Jeff left for work.

My abdomen is quite sore. It's more of a throbbing ache that just won't quit. I want to cry but if I do, the act of crying will make my abdomen feel worse so I'm blogging.

I had hoped that things would be much different by now...that I was able to drive, that I wouldn't be in pain, that I wouldn't see my obgyn 3 times so far post op and twice before surgery. I do feel better overall. The pain that I had into my tailbone is mostly gone. The pain that I had daily from lower back pain is gone. The pain that I had in my thighs is gone. Most days my abdominal pain that I had daily is gone. So there is major improvements but it's been slow going as far as healing goes.

I'm taking each day at a time and right now it's more like each hour but hopefully one day you'll hear that I'm doing much better.

Wishing those of you who suffer from endo pain free days!

Wishing those of you who know of somebody who suffers from endo to educate yourself about the disease and be understanding of them.

Post Operative Check Up # 3

Today was my 3rd post op check up since coming back home from surgery. I still have granulation tissue which is about the size of a pinky fingernail and flower shaped. Dr. L had her nurse hand her the sticks with the silver nitrate on it. She applied them as quickly as she could to the area since I was in pain. I squeezed Jeff's hand hard...the pain hurt too much. With my other hand, dug my fingernails into the palm of my own hand trying to give myself another pain to focus on. Unfortunately that didn't work.

Dr. L. said that she'll update Dr. Albee with the results but not until after my December appointment so that she can give him glowing results. I'm updating him before then.

After the appointment, Jeff helped me into the car and the ride home was bad. I was crying most of the way home. I'm tired of heading over to Dr. L.'s office only to head home again still in pain.

At home, I recomposed myself so that I wouldn't be crying in front of the kids. I had to put on my brave face as I headed in the door. Dinner wasn't going to be prepared by me so Jeff ordered out.

I'm tired of the pain. I'm hoping it'll end soon however I have another post op appointment (post op #4) with Dr. L. the morning of December 2nd. If I'm not healed up by then, it'll be more silver nitrate for me.

Can you tell me this?? When will the pain end??