Thursday, June 18, 2009

Dreading My Annual....

I have always dreaded my annual with my obgyn...why should this year be any different. I'm already in pain due to my fibro and have some unexplained abdominal pain. I'm thankful that Jeff is going with me to my appointment tomorrow afternoon. God I hate afternoon appointments, I would much rather get it done and over with in the morning. I hate dwelling upon it and thinking about it but the afternoons are better for Jeff so I'm stuck.

I need to come up with a list of questions for my doctor. I just pray that she is receptive to listen to me, her patient. It's the one thing that I have grown to hate with doctors...why don't most of them really listen to their patients??

Hoping that I get some questions answered tomorrow.

Friday, June 5, 2009

Reconnections

I've been reconnecting with lots of things/people this year...church, friends, my feelings. I've been mad at lots of things: mad at God that I have endo and lost my uterus and more due to it, mad that I lost out on lots of things in my life, and mad that I lost friends because of the disease.

I feel horrible that I have shoved away friends...good friends that I should have been more supportive to. I have friendships that I need to mend. I know that it will take time.

I hope that you too can forgive whatever wrongs I have done to you. I am trying to be a better person, a better friend to all of you.