I'm trying to work on Christmas cards here...this year is just a letter with picture of the family with Santa (our annual thing to do since 2005). Christmas music is on but I'm finding things hard given the loss that I've had this year. Back in 2001 on Christmas Eve and Day, I was peak in my fertility level. 7 years later to the Holiday season 2008, I've lost my uterus and I'm mourning its loss.
I'm eternally grateful for what I have playing around me (although tripping over toys isn't fun). I never expected to be traveling to a foreign country besides Canada and adopt 3 beautiful kids. But still the hurt is there. I want to cry and mourn the loss but that will have to wait until later after my kids are tucked into their snug little beds for the night.
I read from somebody else on a message board that if you are depressed before a hyst, you will be depressed afterwards. I never wanted to give up my uterus but I felt like there was little choice given the adenomyosis. I feel pretty defeated with this disease. I don't wish these diseases on anyone.
Please if you read this and haven't read and signed the petition to Stamp Out Endometriosis yet, please do so. You know that this woman has suffered from it.
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